Vieled Xpressionz

Today while i was returning in bus to my home, I saw something, it was so special, it was so beautiful, it was so unique, that for once I thought I had imagined it, I suddenly pinched myself, thats when I believed that it was for real.... lemme tell you what it was.......

It was a laugh of a woman.....

Looking at her laugh suggested that she dint care for the world or for the people around her, she just seemed to live, without the rules or the obligations to bind her, she seemed so happy and carefree, that I was just stunned looking at the beauty of that moment, no rules to hold her back, nothing to stop her, it was so special that words fail me to describe the moment.

But suddenly she stopped, and was looking from side to side, she pulled her veil on her head and sat back like she saw retracting in a shell, like she was thinking what others would think, like unseeing hands were telling her to stop, like unsounding voice giving her a warning, she seemed to abide by the “rules”, the “rules” of the “society”, which say that women should be within a limit, the limit which says she cannot express herself, which says, she is bound by the four walls inside the house, which says, she is a woman.

I was very very frustrated at that moment, thousands of questions played in my head, why I mean why has the world said that women should abide by “rules” made by the “society”. I mean who the fuc* made these so called rules?, why cant a women live as per her will?, when the constitution has given right for man and women alike. Why has the society differentiated saying, man is superior and women inferior?

You had to look the fear in the poor lady's eyes, like she had committed some sort of crime, it was so shameful, I felt so much pain at that moment, when I thought that this is what my mother, my bhabi's, my friends, have to go through everyday, they have to abide by the “rules”, which say you are not free... you are a some what lower species than “men”, which say that you are a Women.

I just cant believe what the world has come to, where a person cant even express oneself???. I mean why cant the world be a place where we just don't give rights but actually feel from our hearts that man and women are one, if you look at it a women does more work than a man in a day, whereas a man comes homes from work and cribs for a work not done, he gets furious for not making him a cup of coffee? And says “what the hell were you doing the whole day?”.

I just wanna say get into the shoes of a women for a day you lousy man and you will know what she does....but sadly no matter what, how much ever the “society” moves forward it will be the freaking same, it will still say women should be in a limit, that they are slaves and always should be. Thats what I hate, I hate this male dominated society, where a women has to live in fear every day.

A change is needed, where a man and women will be one, where the “society” wont be there to tell what a women should do and what shouldn't be done, where she will live whole heartedly and not just because she has to live by the “rules”, but where she can laugh when she wants to and cry when she want. But......

But, I think this cruel “society” will never abide by that, by either taunting or by restricting it will always hold her back, and even if she breaks free, it will force its so called rules and hold back this free spirit called women, because it knows, it knows that a women is far more stronger and far more powerful than a man.

Its only time till every women understands this and stands up for herself, and when that day comes, men will fear, they will fear just like that women feared to laugh, they too will be bound by the unseeing hands and unsounding voice. I just hope that day comes, and I pray with god that let it come soon so that everyone learns a lesson which they are supposed to learn.......

A Little Consience Clearing Session

I wore my first “Armani” T-shirt when I was in my 8^th standard, and everyone was totally impressed seeing me in school, I took in the moment though I never told them that it was fake :P and it had just cost me 80 bucks at that time :P

Well life is sometimes like that isn't it?, when you get praise for something that you don't deserve, you stealthily take it, As much as you conscience tells you to tell the truth, your tongue just doesn't let it. An age old favorite “Quote” of my friend comes to my mind “Free ka maal babuji ka maal”.

I have passed with the exact situation a couple of times, where I have took in praise for free, without actually deserving it, I wanted to tell them that its not true and sometimes have even told them, but they are so adamant that they wont believe me, it makes me feel guilty that I am stealing something that is not my own. And it hurts, not much, but just a little, like a thorn stuck in your finger, the pain is not much but still its nags you real bad, and till that thorn is out of your hand you are not at peace.

Well as the name of the post suggests I am here for a lil conscience cleaning session, well the secrets that I am about to let out may seem down right silly, I can already see your answer after reading the post saying “Dude thats not even a secret, you are just being silly”, well maybe I am, but I somehow today I felt that I should clear out a couple of secrets, so here goes......

The one thing that has always nagged me and still sometimes does is that, when my family thinks I am a Big Computer geek, they think I am the Mahamahim of computers or something like that, and always praise me and say “Thousif, Ah he is a wizard with computers” and when I promptly say that I am nothing of sorts and that I just know the basics, they don't believe me itself and say “Oh Thousi stop being so modest, you know you are too good at it”, if only they knew the truth that I couldn't even pass my basic C programming practical exams (That computer language went straight over my head, rather going into it :P), I was like the least scoring student in computers, and when I tried saying I am more interested in writing i.e Novel writing and short stories, they were like “That doesn't have a definite future where as this does Thousif, so concentrate upon this”.

When I flunked in my science Exams in my 10+2 which included failing in Physics, Chemistry, Mathematics (You must be wondering how I passed my degree right? :P) but miraculously I had passed in my Computer science subject, and that made their belief more strong that indeed I was a “Wizard”

My god they told me every time when they caught hold of me, that “You should join Jet king”, “you should join IIHT, it will make a future to you”, as much I tried to convince them they were adamant, but due to my so called satyagraha's I finally made them realize that I was more into writing than the computer world, so they let me pursue my dream, but still the belief remains that I am “Computer Wizard”, and I just take in the praise with out actually deserving it.

Another was when they said “He cares about you, But talks a lil less thats it”, truth was I never really cared, the reason for that was, my so called relatives were only interested in gossip, ughh I hate that word itself, even when I wanted to to tell them I am not interested, my cousin sisters were like, “listen to this, that girl in my class is a total bitch blah blah blah, that guy is so hot blah blah blah” and I had to pretend that I cared because they would literally tie me to chair and make me listen, oh the torture, when I tried to say I just don't give a damn, they would get all teary eyed and would say “You don't care about us na” and as I hate tears I was forced to so “I was just kidding ya” with a fake smile of course and they would say “How sweet of you, you really care about us na” and I was like..... you can guess right..... :P

Well even till today the “whiz” and the “you care about me(Read:Gossip)” comment goes on and I just take the “praise”, I don't know how much more I can take it, and I cant even open my mouth also, because if I do they will get hurt, damn that thorn hurts, hmm lets see when I will find a nail cutter to pick it out.

Wanna help me out on this?, or blast me with your comments, you are most welcome :)

P.S: If you think this post resembles choco's writing, i am missing her posts so that might be it ;)

Till next time this is the “Whiz kid” signing out. Peace. :)

The Get-together

Well I am back, missed me??, I know it has just been 4 days, but I missed you guys so very much really, I am so glad I am back here.

Yesterday introductions took place in college and i had so much fun, i just cant tell you enough, the seniors are the coolest i have met, 2 of the seniors are RJ's and one named chaitra talks and talk and then talks some more my god, It was great.....

Well guess what I learned something new (again :P), I think I gotta change this blog name to The learner or something....anyways, so here is the thing I learned,

I went back to see all the posts I have written and saw that I have been ranting only about me,and me only, Oh how selfish am I???, Tch Tch Tch, so to make my mistake good (Again :P), this post is totally dedicated to you guys, See how good hearted person I am (Please say yes please........)

Well so here is the thing how its gonna work, there are 2 questions which are very close to my heart, you have to anwer those with truth and truth only, sort of like Sach ka saamna, that show harms more than it heels, but this will heal more than you expect.........

So here is a 1st question.......

This was asked by my very good friend Abhishek aka x-system, his question has been like the turning point of my life, it may seem simple to answer, but I want you to not take it simply as a mere question, but seriously ask yourself, or rather your heart and answer, and also you should give a reason as to why you are giving that answer, Be honest (at least this time yaar :P), here it is......

Who would you take a bullet for?

Seems simple right. Wrong, just read the question again and think with all your heart as to who is that person who is so close to you, for whom you would literally give your life, no name may come or a hundred may pop up, the person may be your friend or a relative, I just want to why, you can only say 3 person's name and not more, and please don't say “My parents come first” because we all know parents are the most important persons in our life, so besides your parents just temme who are the 3 most important person's in your life for whom you would literally take a Bullet for?

Well if you ask me the 3 person for whom I would take a bullet for are Jasmine, Vinod, Chavan.

Jasmine: She is my friend who I met online, lives in assam, and we are the bestest friends ever, The reason I choose jasmine is because she was the one, who gave a feel to my care, I cared for everyone before (i.e my family and friends), but I dint feel the care I had, it was more like I was forced to care or something, but when I, talked to jasmine, she made me realize there is more to life than pretend, I understood that you live our life because you love it, and when you really feel the care towards your loved ones, it is the best feeling ever, the realization made me realize what others pain and happiness is all about and because of this, I owe everything to her, my feelings, my care, My life.

Vinod: He is my other friend, who I met in my school, they story of how we became friends is also, quite nice, I and vinod were in my 8th standard, we actually dint talk to each other much even though we were classmates from nursery, one day when I asked him his home work of G.K, he said he wouldn't give me and said you should work it our yourself, I seized his book instead, he got angry and punched me in the face and we began a fight, after the fight (And I was badly bruised :P), I asked sorry and he too did the same we and resolved our differences and became frenz.
8 years down the line, we are so close to each other, that we don't hide anything from each other, may it be our secrets or each other torn chaddi's :P, we are best buddies, he is the one who has been always there for me, and I guess if I land up I any trouble, he will be the first one rescue me, So I choose him

Chavan: I met chavan in my 10+2, I was studying science, I was BIG gaming freak at that time, and he was the same too, so we got to know each other very well, during my second year I flunked, I later took up commerce and passed my 10+2, and he passed in science itself and went to college, there had been a gap of one year, his studies to mine, but this dint deter our friendship.
when I first met him in my degree college almost after a year, we were like, we had never been away itself, we gelled so well that friendship with him took a whole new meaning. The understanding between us took to a whole new level and we became the best buds ever, he has been with me all the time, even though I am here in Mysore studying journalism and he is in Bangalore working as a software engineer in Microsoft, it has not changed a thing for us, He has always been there for me, by giving me support when I was lonely, or by giving me some quality advice about girls ;). he is the one who I can whole heartedly trust on at any moment in my life.... So chavan.

My second question is:

What is the most Inspiring thing ever happened to you?


This a Lil complicated one because there may many things that may have happened to you, which took your life towards being a lil better and making a lil more sense to you, so sort it out among those and write in the best one in ok......

If you ask me one thing that has inspired the most in my life is Reading Blogs. (Don't Smile there ;)), I know it may seem like a simple answer, but honestly, blogs have been like my stepping stones towards success, before, I was like an extreme introvert (if there ever was one), I dint mingle much, i dint talk much, I dint express much, I was like a apricot, hard on outside soft on inside, but after I read blogs written by you guys, I have been able to see a situation in a different perspective, I now mingle, and talk like crazy, its like sunshine has come in my dark life, really, I am so very happy and lucky, to have come across some quality blogs which have changed me for the better, and I am so very thankful to you guys, your words are literally my inspirations, thank you once again.

Thats one, another thing that has fueled my inspiration every time is FEAR, or to put it in a more sensible way its what lies ahead of the fear,
Those mountain dew guys may have cheesy ad's but they have one hell of a tag line. Darr ke aage jeet hain (Beyond Fear Lies Victory), awesome na??.

Really every time I have a new idea in my head, there is a fear and I think “will it work??, will I find success?”, and when I think about it, in my mind I start falling into a deep pit, and the only logical (Read:illogical) option that seems is, that I should drop that idea, but then a voice in my head says “lets give it try, you got nothing to lose except your honor”, listening to it I fear some more, and sulk, but another voice in my heart says “Dude mind is a ass, it is just there to make you fall into that pit, so that you wouldn't get up at all, I would say get up and try to climb that pit with all your strength, you may fall, but atleast you tried right?” I am in confusion, but the victory that lies ahead of the fear is far more convincing than the fear itself, so I take the risk, and see what has become of me.

I feared I couldn't write, and as said by some of you guys I am writing beautifully and very well now (even though my handwriting sucks, Big time :P), I feared to express my feelings thinking others might make fun of me, but when I did I just found more love than hate, I feared that by being different, everyone will think me as a freak, but it has just brought me applause than booing, So fear is the one thing that has inspired me to take a step into unknown, and besides some very small failures and hiccups on the way, I have found success in every part of my life, So for me FEAR is the one thing that inspires me as much as it motivates me.

I know, I know, I told you I wouldn't talk about me, but I ended up doing the same, Dil hai ke manta nai yaaro..... kya karen!!!

Well that was about me, but you guys now have to answer the above 2 questions, so that I get to know you a lil better, best answers will win chocolate chip cookies (Virtual ones of course :P), so now ask your self the above questions and give me a peek into your chweet little heart :).

Good luck, God bless. Cya Soon

Is It Really Love??

Would you hurt the one you love?, would you abuse the one you love?, would you force your love on the one you love?

These were the exact questions that came in my mind when a friend of mine went through all the above situations, I felt so angry that if I was there I think an unexplainable crime would have been committed by me on that day,

You know I am always a believer that when you love someone, its should be mutual, you shouldn't force your love, you shouldn't hurt that person, how can a feeling like abusing or hurting can even come to one's mind, when you love the person, its some sickos who tell they love but don't really know the real meaning who do something like this, which has led to the term love get tainted.

But for persons like the above who abuse, they are like maniacs who just need love for all the wrong reasons, they say they love you but don't really mean it, they threaten you if you don't accept their love, they think the person will get scared and will accept their so called love, finally when the person cant take more of that abuse or hurting he or she goes to take the final step and commits suicide, and then what happens??, the other person too pops some pills and dies, to prove that the person's love was true, I ask you is that love?????

I am no preacher, but lemme put it in a nutshell, love is about finding happiness, is int it?, So if a person doesn't accept your love, cant you find happiness in things which he or she finds in their life?, cant you be happy for your loved one's happiness?. As everyone says, true love is about sacrificing, you sacrifice yourself for the person you love, but here some of the freaks just sacrifice the person itself, I mean what the hell ya?????,

For all the persons who think forcing your love upon another will get you ways, here is a newsflash, No you sick minded freak, you are not getting anywhere, trust me he or she will just hate you more, so bring a little sense in your nonsensical brain and go my blogger friend keshi's way of life, find love in yourself, rather than finding it another and try to be happy in another's happiness, give an take is the old saying, give and give is the new mantra.....

This was a the hate post as you all can say, for all the maniacs out there who think forcing or abusing or hurting the person you love will get love in return, lemme tell you one more time, NO the only thing you will get is pain, desperation and police lathi's on your asses thats it,

The same can be said about the persons who are so In love that they hurt themselves who think that by bearing pain they can “prove” their love to another, I don't understand, how does does hurting or getting hurt mean love at all????, is is really love????

I am no judge but I just wanna say, try being a little mature and just love with all your heart and you can be damn sure that the person sooner or later will see for what you are and will accept your love for sure. Try it, it will really bring happiness to both of you rather than pain.

Till next time god bless and good luck.........