Not so simple thoughts

I know i havent been around much. Maybe i'm just too lazy. Well, this is sort of a return. I donno when i'll be back again, but i hope its soon.

To start things off, i have written something(finally! :P). I was in a fight with myself when i wrote it. Its not exactly the best poem i have written, but i like it. It speaks to me. I have put in straightforward words whatever i felt at that moment. Hope u guys like it :). thank you all for reading my blog and constantly leaving comments. I know i dont reply to them, but i always read them and i love each one of them :). I will reply to them all in this post. Well, so without further blabbering... here's the poem...

Dare to dream

So rough these lines in hand; each trace in it distinctly reminding of what I have come to achieve.

In sameness I live.

Each morning I wake up the same way as y’day, waiting....

Waiting..... Every day, I wait some more.

I know it’s there. Its mine for the taking, I just have to be brave..... But I can’t.

Reasons are aplenty.

Easily i point my fingers to a new one. every day.

Each one is a lie, responsibility being the most believable one.

Moving on is easy. It’s the looking back that hurts.

I know I have it me, I can feel it, sense it.....

It’s not easy.

I know I am holding myself back, but there’s fear and I can’t seem to overcome it, not by myself.

Baring my soul is easy, it comes naturally to me.

If only it was possible now.....

I tend to hold onto a long forgotten dream, desperately.

It’s funny how memories work.

Things that I can’t hold onto, i try high and low to keep them in my grasp. But the ones that I can actually achieve, I run away from; I don’t even try.

Both come easy to me, the latter being the easiest.

Magic works; the magic of sleep.

Erasing everything I thought last day, was fighting with.

I don’t feel like surrendering, but I have to.

Reluctantly, helplessly I surrender.

I live another day; daring to dream; daring to turn that dream into my favourite mirage, reality.

<3 u all :). Take care... till next time.....

The return of the return of (the return :P)

So so so i'm not dead :P... ok you have heard that before, but still (guess it should be my daily status update :P) any hooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

OK got a lil bit of tarzan into me :P so anyways... i'm ALIVE.... hurray :D

besides a couple of very low sounding yeah yeah's and under the cough swearing of 'oh shit' :P...i'll shamelessly continue!!

The year is coming to an end so there are a lot of memories to be shared

From the time i flew a plane(a real one), to a place where i lost like 10 competitions in 2 days but gained tremendous self confidence. From a place where i thought i'll somehow get up at 6 in the morning to a place where i slept at 2 every night(yeah it was the same day i made the resolution that i'll get up at 6 :P) Everything!!.... is to be shared.... but till that time (yes i'll be back again!! yes, this month itself. God u guys ask so many questions :P)

Here is something i wrote,so that u remember me by and appreciate the love we have in our lives :) enjoy..

EVIL M: Shut up and write quickly would ya... hey guys hi:) *wink, wink* that winks are only for the hot girls out there OK... gay boys... shoo shoo :P

Words are the only thing i can give to you my darling

Because they whisper a small volume of the valley of love, i have inside

Many feelings in my heart i feel

but words seem like a disgrace, to describe their true appeal

The feel of which i speak to you

is not just in my heart, its in my soul

because its yearns for and finds true love, in only.... your's

Its not just what we have in our hearts that makes us...We

Its who We are and what We have become

From the timeless eternity love has proved its place among us

And made everyone believe

That no matter what you are or who you might become

any day, and i mean any day, love..... will give you that strength

Even in the weakest times in your body, or

in the hardest of times in your lives

Love will always make you strong

and make you believe.

That love wasn't born out of life.

It was life, that was and always will be born out of

......Love

Till next time its me Thousif Raza, (and EVIL M ;), wassup girls!!!! ;)) singing off... have a blessed christmas :)... and no new year wishes cause i'll be back till then ;)

.....And if you wanna give me gifts, well send me a email, my account number is a big 16digit code ;)and CANNOT be leaked out so... jaldi say send me those emails ;)

Take care everyone...cya soon love you all..XOXO . Christmas hugs :) XOXO take care :) :) :)

Hiya world

So everybody's missing me which is so great to hear.... awesome... :D :D .... I was extremely busy this last month (work busy... not lazy busy :P) I was covering a international conference... got noted for my work...other things... taking bath for once... so you know. i was busy

But looking at you all miss me like this makes me all emotional... thank you so much guys for your constant support :) and sorry i haven't been around, i'll be ther as soon as i can.

I just wrote this couple of nights back... so I’ll be sharing it with you. I’ll be coming back soon, within a week, till then I hope you like it...

The Walk of life

No truth, no lie

On this path of nothingness I stand

Trying to prove what I want

Hundred paths leading to the same way

The only way where I want to be

Each one a mystery than the other

Everything what I believe in at stake

Every step I take. Careful

Will i meet my destiny as i've thought

Or will destiny itself pave new roads for me

The path of nothingness

Leading to everything lays ahead of me

Looking forward Unperturbed and unfollowed

I Walk

Here's another one...i wrote this one just last night...

Tell me i love you with so much depth

That the ocean itself, screams out looking at your's.

Tell me i love you with so much strength

That the hurricane falls down on its knees, weeping out of its glory.

Tell me i love you with so much intensity

That even the raging forest fire turns itself to dust, in shame.

Tell me i love you with so much love

That love itself may find its true worth today.

I havent named the latter one, so any suggestions are welcome, i hope to see you guys real soon, and thank you once again for your support :), love you all :)

Some more emotions

I won’t be writing a blog post of evil m this week because I have exams.... so these are the 2 poems which i had written to help a friend for her competition. I donno if they won or not, because she is absconding after that :P, so here goes

Enjoy :)

Dreams

Born in me against my will
Those carved emotions.
With wings of a fresh butterfly
Pure as morning dew.

Breaking all barriers
An addiction.
To conquer, to achieve, to live.

I am unstoppable
A Dream chaser
Nothing to lose
I will be there soon.

Father

Grew up in your arms
Your warm shadow
Walks to school, and long rides on your back
I remember…

There you were every time
When my eyes searched for you
To support me,to guide me
You never let me down dad.

Oh how I remember your smile
When I wore my first pink gown
How you understood my silence, my little wishes
Dreams which i chased
On which they laughed
i found them
Turning true in your eyes
Angel you called me
But one you are
My first and best mate for life...

A huge thank you for Tulika who helped me with these poems, I just provided her words and she filled life into these :).Thank you again tulika…..

I have exams till 26th followed by my intership till 28th of the next month, so I don’t think I will be able to blog, miss me ok :), and when you do, send me an email :)

Take care….I’ll miss you all

Dusted from the past

When my friend jasmine told me that she liked reading poems, that was the 1st time when i thought of writing poems, i never believed that i could write them until she encouraged me

I started by writing this one below,

Poem 1
The time when I met u, the sun turned red
I suddenly thought is it time to bed?
But then I got to know what it means,
So beautiful it was, of all the scenes
It was a relationship, that no one knew,

I had found a beautiful friend it was you.

I know its not great, but she liked it and that boosted my confidence some more

The rest of the poems that you will read have all been written when i was in college listening to my lecturers :D, you will know the reason as you read them, have fun.

Poem 2
Sun, stars and moon I like to see
But it’s you, with whom I always wanna be,
I thought life is what, you make it to be
But it got its real meaning, with you as the key,
Never has someone come close to my heart
Without you, even a day I cannot leave apart.

Poem 3
The first time that I met you at a bay
All those beautiful dreams I saw in may,
It all came together in one piece
Like a moment one could never seize,
I got something as special as morning dew
Most precious & beautiful in my life, it’s you.

Poem 4
Money seems just like a waste
Even honey has lost its taste,
Morning sunrise doesn’t have that charm
When it appears above that farm,
It makes every moment in my life worthwhile
When I see that special warmth in your smile.

Poem 5
I gasped for a moment, when I first saw you
Because the beauty of your smile was so untrue,
I thought there was nothing to see in this world
But it got erased, as I was caught in your hold,
I can never forget that grace in your eyes
They can never be compared, even to the skies.

Parting Shot:"Whenever I count my blessings, your name comes first on my lips, because you are the best gift, god ever gifted me with"

And the above line is dedicated all of my beloved friends (yes you my blog readers) you make me happy everyday with your lovely comments, thank you,

The 'A' selection list of my college is coming up Friday so get back to praying for me OK ;), take care of yourself c ya soon.............