i am back.. well sort of...

So i've got exams, that is like from 2 days from now.... so i wanna write many many(boring) new things but because i am so busy doing(lazy) things... i'll just stick to posting this poem which i wrote like a month ago... i just got up in the morning one day, took my pen and paper and started writing this poem, one my classmates said, its my best work till date :D, i was so happy... so here i present to you...

The Glories We Conquer

In the wake of the red mist, i open my eyes to see a flood

A flood of friends and foes scattered horrendously welcoming me. Lifeless

A second ago dying to open my eyes

Now only wishing if i were blind

A second ago what was filled with life

All now a proof of nightmares, A nightmare called death

The earth which smiled of a lively green

now only screams in the color of agony

The earth with a promise of warm sunshine

Now spews out a cold stench, reeking of bitterness and hatred

Perplexed, helpless, shocked i see

A sight which was never meant to be

The plants which once seeked water to flourish

Grow now with a taste of someone's life

A slow calm voice rises in my head

My mother teaching me when i was young

Every other man is your brother

I now in the distance see one, taking the life of another

Gathering the strength left in my arms, i stand up to a view of devastation

A moment of history made yesterday

A history no one will ever be proud of

I take a step forward and crush it into a stranger's eyes

The eyes which had dreamed of a son, growing now in his wife's womb

A son who will never see the shine

The shine of his father's green eyes

With another, i step onto a man's hands, breaking them. Forever

Hands which carried his daughter to school everyday, while he was home

Just like that i walk on,

from a warm place, where i took an oath to save every life,

to this wet place now, crushing and destroying dreams and memories

what starts as a walk, turns into a run. A run for my life

Falling into someone's arms which held life once,

to another's who always thought hatred was the answer

I cry now, breathing hard, cause i cant walk but crawl

So i crawl now, exhausted. My strength slipping down a stream of tears

Every movement i make, dragging me into a stench

A stench which seeps deep into my skin

Never to be washed of again

Crying, screaming and with utter despair

I reach the end of the sight

A sight no human should ever see

My mother waits for me in my distant home

Where she has promised me porridge, If i return home safe

Safe. A word me neither the world will ever believe in

Unwillingly and with an herculean attempt i pull myself up

to walk towards a will of mine, to live

A voice inside asking me just one question.................. "for what?"

Well, i know its a lil emotional, but don't be too sad cause i will be back to make u laugh sooooon... wish me that my exams go well, cause i haven't studied much(Read:Zilch :P) so... cya all soon. have a nice month ahead take care :)

P.S: This is my 75th post :D......sho happy :)

The return of the return of (the return :P)

So so so i'm not dead :P... ok you have heard that before, but still (guess it should be my daily status update :P) any hooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

OK got a lil bit of tarzan into me :P so anyways... i'm ALIVE.... hurray :D

besides a couple of very low sounding yeah yeah's and under the cough swearing of 'oh shit' :P...i'll shamelessly continue!!

The year is coming to an end so there are a lot of memories to be shared

From the time i flew a plane(a real one), to a place where i lost like 10 competitions in 2 days but gained tremendous self confidence. From a place where i thought i'll somehow get up at 6 in the morning to a place where i slept at 2 every night(yeah it was the same day i made the resolution that i'll get up at 6 :P) Everything!!.... is to be shared.... but till that time (yes i'll be back again!! yes, this month itself. God u guys ask so many questions :P)

Here is something i wrote,so that u remember me by and appreciate the love we have in our lives :) enjoy..

EVIL M: Shut up and write quickly would ya... hey guys hi:) *wink, wink* that winks are only for the hot girls out there OK... gay boys... shoo shoo :P

Words are the only thing i can give to you my darling

Because they whisper a small volume of the valley of love, i have inside

Many feelings in my heart i feel

but words seem like a disgrace, to describe their true appeal

The feel of which i speak to you

is not just in my heart, its in my soul

because its yearns for and finds true love, in only.... your's

Its not just what we have in our hearts that makes us...We

Its who We are and what We have become

From the timeless eternity love has proved its place among us

And made everyone believe

That no matter what you are or who you might become

any day, and i mean any day, love..... will give you that strength

Even in the weakest times in your body, or

in the hardest of times in your lives

Love will always make you strong

and make you believe.

That love wasn't born out of life.

It was life, that was and always will be born out of

......Love

Till next time its me Thousif Raza, (and EVIL M ;), wassup girls!!!! ;)) singing off... have a blessed christmas :)... and no new year wishes cause i'll be back till then ;)

.....And if you wanna give me gifts, well send me a email, my account number is a big 16digit code ;)and CANNOT be leaked out so... jaldi say send me those emails ;)

Take care everyone...cya soon love you all..XOXO . Christmas hugs :) XOXO take care :) :) :)

Time and Love

I have never dreamed after i saw you

After that day, i never needed to

With your touch

That rock became a heart.

No questions arise and answers surprise

There lie no expectations, of which i was once a slave

Meeting you was my biggest mistake

Stole away my sense and sleep

But that is something i will never regret to keep.

Once, God didn’t exist

And now I Believe.

That river flowing by is so merciless

It took you away for the morning next

My eyes search for some sunshine in yours

For it enlivens that rock and seeks for more

Promises i make are my commandments today

And this even death would obey.

Dont worry, i am not in love :P, but couple of dayz back, emotions made me say these lines...

i wrote a rough(Read: Hopeless) copy and asked tulika for advice, and she has perfected it, into this..... Thank you very very much tulika, for finding its true soul.... :)

Xams will be there so i wont be available for this month, (miss me ok ;))

Will be missing all you guyz :)

till next time..... take care :)

Happy Birthday Jasmine :)

Today i am not writing a regular post, because today is a very special occasion, so its a special post for a special person

Well as the post itself suggests its my best friend jasmine's birthday today(remember the one for whom i would take a bullet for!! yeah her) .

As she lives in assam i cant send her any gift(cause its too costly sending a courier there :P) so i have written a acrostic just for her, (her name is Debaraty so the poem is in that name)

Destiny's child she seems to be

Evergreen memories she leaves behind when she talks

Bestest buddy of mine in the whole world

Awesome will just be an understatement if i define her

Rapunzel will seem bland in front of her

Aphrodite is what more she is like

Today is her birthday, she turns a year old, But

Young in my heart she w2ill always remain, till the end of time itself

I know this poem may not be the best but, those words came from my heart, so i just hope she likes her, i once again wish her HAPPY BITHDAY JASMINE, wish you all the happines in the world, may you be always happy, take care

Dont forget, you gotta wish her too in the commens ok ;)

I will be back saturday with a new post, until then miss me ok, take care c ya soon :)