Well good news first….
My blog is finally getting some fantastic and awesome comments; I really appreciate them… so keep them coming…
Well this blog ‘now’ is totally dedicated to my friends, but it was not like this before, so let me tell you briefly, about the ‘history’ of this blog. (But I will still write about other stuff)
I never thought I would be sharing my personal feelings with others. I’ll tell you why…because I just wanted to write about games (I was a game addict) ,because only games were the medium, where (I thought) I found trust(in my favorite SPAS 12 gun),where (I thought)I lived my life, by being in another virtual world; you might think where I am going with this, so let me assure you it’s going in the right direction. Ok back to things, so I thought, I was happy killing aliens, and smiling when I had finished the level, it was addiction, craze (I thought)I loved to live in, but I found out a far better craze, far better addiction which I now really love to live in, wherein I live my life to the fullest, and I just don’t think that I am living, it is the most satisfying thing I have found in my life, it’s the most beautiful thing on earth, you know what it is……..????????
It is ‘FRIENDSHIP’
So today I am here to talk about the person, who started it all. You know this blog you are reading about my friends began with this person, I have to give you more ‘history’ lessons, (plz plz plz don’t get bored ok, its gonna get real interesting after these ‘history’ lessons so stay with me people)
Well, when I ,1st joined orkut I was in a dilemma ,I didn’t know who to send a friend request, what to do, but a friend helped me out ,and soon I was browsing profiles and finally found a profile which was cool, so I sent a request and she accepted.
Well then you may think began the usual story with us chatting and getting to know each other and all that. YOU are wrong!!!! the story changes here, you know what’s the twist here, it’s that I have met this person online only once!! Yeah only Once and that too my net connection was so slow, I thought I had gone back to the 2nd world war era (damn I hate that day),well I have only known her through offline messages, I send her a question once she replies me another time when she comes online and this is ,she only comes online once in 20 or 25 days, it’s almost a month when I find her reply, not because she is lazy or something, she is a very smart person, it’s because she is seriously into studies, (it's always like a blink and miss,like when i come online she is not there,and when she is online i am not there,just missing by an hour or so)
Studies are her number one priority, so she replies only whenever she was free, but she is really good friend to me, she answers each of my question faithfully ,never forgetting to reply, well so I adore her, like I got a hundred friends in my friend list ,but none of them replies properly(why do these peoples even make profiles???),but she replies to me every time she comes online, she is one of my 1st best friends I made on orkut,also you guys should actually thank her, because, only of her, that I started writing about my friends in this blog.
Her name is ANDRIA PASCEGAS. (I call her ANN)
Well Ann as I said was the 1st close friend I made on orkut, well first we chatted,the usual, where r u from, what u do?, all that stuff, we really got close only in a couple of visits, even though we didn’t meet online, but I really got going when I said I had this liking for a girl,
Here the story turns to me, but Ann comes later where she is most needed
Well I am not the guy who goes around ogling at girls, or making fun, I have very high respect for them, I just mind my own work, and go on with my life, (when I was a kid I really, absolutely, truly, hated girls, so I never had friends who were girls, I had friends who I would only approach for study matters but nothing else, but after this incident everything changed)
Well I gotta confess to you guys, this incident happened, just about recently (i.e. 1 year 8 months back ;-)) well it was like a film story, here how it goes, I had to do a seminar in my class and so I had borrowed a couple of books of the library, and after I had prepared for it I went with a friend of mine to return the books, and when I returned the books, and took the library card and kept it in my purse,(so what you’ll say?, well read on guys,u’ll know)
So, When I kept the card in my purse, I dint notice that a hundred rupee note from my purse had fallen from my purse, I just kept the card and was going back to my class, I had moved a couple of steps, when a girl came from the back, and said you have dropped your money, here take it back, I was grateful to her, and said “thanks”, she smiled and went away, I turned back to my friend and said, “I only got this back, because she was a girl”, he said “why is that?”, I said “if a guy had picked it up, he would definitely never return this to me”(well in matters of loyalty and honesty, girls top, I give you that)
Well I completely forgot about it, and I really didn’t know that I would see that girl again, man was I wrong…
Well I saw her again the same evening, and I was with a friend, it was raining, an as I was about to open my umbrella, I saw towards the other side and saw the same girl smiling towards me, at the same time the friend who was with me also saw her, and he thought she was smiling towards him(there was pretty big mix up there with my friend, before he understood the real deal), well I just smiled back and went my way (I know you may say “why didn’t you go and talk to her?”),but if u have read my 1st post u will know, that I was not so good with, talking with girls, back in the day, I was nervous wreck, other than studies I had not talked to a girl, even casually, so I just made my way home, this time too I forgot about her, but guess what I saw her the very next day, this time too she smiled, I thought, ‘this is something’, whereas I have to smile seeing her, because she returned my money, why in the world is she smiling towards me, I had a hundred questions going in my mind, ‘does she like me?’, ‘why is she smiling?’, God I wanted answers to all this, I dint even know her name, I didn’t know which class she was in, and I sure as hell couldn’t approach her directly, so I didn’t have real close friends to discuss this, then I thought of Ann, if somebody can help me it would have to be Ann ,so I went online and asked her what to do? I asked her to advice me, well to my luck I got the reply the very next day, she said “don’t be afraid, go approach her, and say hi, how are you? when are the exams that sort of stuff," but when I explained her the irony that I dint even knew her name ,she said that it’s difficult then, she said find her name first, and all this dint happen only in 2 or 3 days it was only after around 10 to 12 days when she would be online again, and my bad luck was I dint see this girl after that 'smile' day, so there was no lead for me, but whenever I asked something, Ann was there to answer, she was never angry or frustrated, even when I asked some really silly questions(yeah really silly, I wont share that here),she answered me very patiently, she started to reply faster narrowing down to 2 to 3 days this almost took me 3 months, and I still dint see her(because my college is pretty big), but Ann was always there to guide me, at last one day I saw her again in the library, but when I was about to approach her some old friends of mine came and I couldn’t leave, but I asked an old friend of mine who was talking with her before, “do you know her?”, to my surprise he said she is of his class only and said her name to me too, I said this to Ann, and she encouraged me to go ahead, only because of Ann I was fully prepared to talk to her but as luck would have it ,there was dramatic ‘twist’ …she left the college just the next day, her dad had been transferred to Bangalore and so she had left the college(which I learnt later),u know I surely could not discuss this with my parents, and my friends who were mostly boys would have made fun of me, but not Ann, Ann really was very supportive ,I had felt really sad @ that time, but Ann was more sad than me, she said “why had she left in the middle of the year”, I told her the reason, she said its really sad but what can you do in front of fate, if at that time she was not there, I don’t know what would I do? to whom would I have gone and shared my feelings, but only and only because of Ann, I felt better at that moment, and whenever I have I problem, I first contact her, the support she gave me that time was very valuable, after that sad day, I overcame my nervousness, and now I am more casual, and more comfortable with friends who are girls and now can talk to girls just like anyone else, I know its no big deal, but to come out of that emotional barrier is hard, and can only be known, but the person itself,
She is really very helpful, and I am glad, really glad I found a friend like Ann, well I mostly don’t know about her because she rarely comes online, but it’s a great pleasure to see her reply in my scrapbook whenever she does, she is really cool, I have not seen her or talked to her in person, but she is really close to me, she was a turning point in my life, she changed my course of life, I am now confident around girls but it wouldn’t have been possible if Ann wasn’t there, she helped get over that barrier, and I am grateful to her for that .
The song that I will dedicate to her is no ordinary one, it’s my favorite in fact it’s the favorite song of friendship itself, this song describes friendship like none other
So the song is
The one and only
“Yeah dosti” from the film ‘SHOLAY’
This is for you ANN
Ann, I know that we both don’t meet each other online, but you have been really very helpful to me, you are the living explanation of the saying “ a friend in need is a friend indeed” without you I would have missed something very important in my life, and would have not even made friends with girls who, some of them are now very dear to me,all thanks to you only you, you are the 1st best friend I made on orkut, and I am lucky to have found you, the only one regret from you is that you don’t come online often, please make some time and come online so that I can know you better, I really wanna know more about you, you were always there when I needed you the most, you helped me deal with situations ,which I couldn’t handle my self, please be my friend as you always have, because you are an integral part of my life.
I know I should have written about you a lot earlier, but I had to know more about you, but you rarely coming online doesn’t help, I am not complaining!!!!! Just making a request to you please come online more often. Don’t u want to see me happy, then come online more frequently ok????
Take care of yourself, because you are really special, and come online often so that I can be happy ok
Ok guys until my next update c u byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.