What do we do when we are feeling very low? We try to
find inspiration and motivation from people who have achieved greatness in
life. We look up to those who have succeeded in-spite of difficult
circumstances around them. We look at the ones who’ve created an impact on
several lives.
We see these people and then try to reassure ourselves
that everything is going to be alright by updating our status to positive
sayings from famous people and writing blog posts about how everything is going
to be okay.
I am 28 years old. By now I have had a lot of breakdowns.
Every time this happens I want to give up everything and run away. I want to go
to a place where I can just read novels and eat pizza and ice cream all day, every
day. During these breakdowns, I used to wallow in self-pity and self-sympathy
and cry myself to sleep for a few days. And just like that one morning, I used
to wake up and snap out of this whole self-pity thing. I used to take charge of
the situation, read a little motivating & inspirational stuff and come out
of this blackness into the bright light and again everything used to be
colorful and fun and nice until the next breakdown. That was how it was, every
time.
With experience and wisdom, I started questioning all
these motivational and inspirational sayings. One time I found a saying which
said "Do what makes you happy" and I started thinking maybe I am in
the wrong profession; maybe this is not what I want to be and I should do
something which makes me happy.
I would dream about a job where just reading novels all
day would get me paid. I would totally rock at that job. While in this search
for what makes me happy, I stumbled upon another quote "I don't think you
should just do what makes you happy. Do what makes you great. Do what's hard
and uncomfortable and scary and hard but pays off in the long run." After
reading this, I thought, I shouldn’t just do what makes me happy. I should do
something bold and brave even though I wouldn’t like it sometimes.
Thoughts like these make you question everything you have
ever believed in. You suddenly remember that saying which you really took to
heart about how "If it is supposed to happen, it will happen" and think
what if it was supposed to happen but I didn't make it happen; what if I had
tried harder and made it happen. And with this thought comes a flood of
regrets, a night of crying and a blizzard of what-ifs. Navigating through this
minefield of negative thoughts drowns your energy. It messes you up. You break
down again.
So, I made my own quote, which I say to myself all the
time "Papple"*in little minion voice with a big toothy smile* and in
addition to that, I keep telling to myself "It will be alright. You will
pull through. I trust you."
In the end, it’s not about finding the right motivator to
follow. It is about being your own motivator. You have to write down about all
your breakdowns to learn how you got back up from them. You have to never quit on life. You have to
tell yourself that how you will never quit. How you will never give power to
negative thoughts and let them impact your decisions. Because the truth is, you
are the only one who knows you best. And that means when you breakdown, you
have to be strong enough to pick yourself back up and live life that’ll make
you happy.
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